Saturday, March 29

Needed to be said


"I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free."
-Michelangelo
So I have some things to say. A lot, actually.
Thank you, Mom and Dad, for listening. I know it's hard for you, but thank you. Brayden, you saved my life and for that I will always love you. Amanda, you've always been there for me, I hope you never let go of the things you want to do. Julie, you've been such a kind friend, thank you. Clint, thank you for the smile. Sky, I don't know what I'd do without your help. Darby, I miss you more than anything, thank you for being so amazing, and such an inspiration to me. Diantha, I love you. Lizzi, don't ever give up. Paige, you will never be alone. Josh, thank you for the laugh I needed. Jason, you can touch the stars, you can be the best nerd in the whole world, do what ever you want, just take the first step. Caleb, thanks for the unexpected advice. Christian, thank you for teaching me patience, I just hope you open your eyes and smile at me, I've been waiting for two years now. Katherine, thank you for the reminders that there's always sunshine somewhere. Emily, don't ever lose sight of your dreams, I know that having me as a big sister must get annoying, but I love you, I always will. No matter what. Erica, same goes for you, I love you more than air. Becky, thank you for being so caring. Mark, you're the best brother in the world, the one I always wanted. Meagan, I love you, keep smiling.
And to myself... Life isnt so bad. Everything's going to be alright.
Someone called me an angel, and these are the people who made me that angel, these are my Michelangelo's.
On my last post, someone said I should talk to God, and that would solve my problems. I think I just needed to say things I've wanted to for so long. Maybe God, Allah, Buddah, who ever, is my next step.

Tuesday, March 25

Alone

Sometimes, I feel alone. That's bizzar, as I can never have a minute to myself, there's always some one some where. But right now, I feel really alone. Like I'm trapped behind a glass wall. Isolation seems to set in when I need a specific someone most, and the times I need them, they disapear. Am I the only one that happens to? How do you tell someone that all you want is a smile, when they won't even look at you half the time. Maybe I was meant to be like Beethoven, an insane artist who was always alone, till the day he died. At least there's the possibility of being famous in another houndred years

Sunday, March 23

My dress




I usually don't do the whole dress thing... but I made an exception for Easter, and I might just wear it to the school dance on friday. I'm feeling brave this week : )
*Edit. So, I checked my calendar, and I started crying. Science fair is on the same day as the dance. I bought that dress thinking about that stupid dance, and now im going to be covered in greese explaining a car engine to nerds. I need a hug. Desperately.*
**EDIT!! I MARKED MY CALENDAR WRONG! Haha, science fair is on the 27, dance 28. I feel better now haha.**

Saturday, March 22

My Niece


I've decided I need to be a bit more like my niece. She doesn't get mad at people that often, only what they do, and even then all she does is frown at you and mutter mumbojumbo under her breath. She smiles a lot, and half the time it's for no good reason. She doesn't know how to do a lot, but she's always willing to learn. And even if she still doesn't get it, she tries her best. I don't know what she sees in the world, but what ever it is, I've decided I'm going to look for it.

Thursday, March 20

My favorites









My ten favorite photos... well, I have to admit that these are not my ten favorite photos, I have much more than ten. But, these are the ones that mean the most to me. So, I hope this works for you Beck, I had fun doing it. Oh and its a tag, so everyone who happens to read this, tag! post your ten favorite photos, or if you're like me, the ten you happen to like most right now.

Sunday, March 16

Lying Lack in Vision




My friend quoted Picasso, saying all art was a lie. I thought about it, and decided I disagree. Art is a perspective, a different eye. Just because it's different does not make it a lie.
Picasso said "Art is a lie which makes us realize the truth." I say art is an ability to see something independant of outside vision, and not dismiss it because you don't see it.

Friday, March 14

SBOs







The school asked me to do the SBO yearbook shots, and I nearly had a heart attack. I was terrified, because I'm not all that great making people look their best in pictures, but I took it as a compliment that they'd want me to do it, and I tried. I think they're adorable, but some feed back would be nice. Hopefully the rest of the school likes them!

Monday, March 3

rainbowed in grey




This is my attempt to depict my thoughts. Too confusiong to follow and too sporatic to organize. My camera is my one escape, and my pictures are my only outlet.

Sunday, March 2

I'm lost

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space.