Monday, November 14

How I Broke My Window

Hello! I'm so sorry I haven't posted any pictures... this isn't much of a photoblog right now, but it'll come back, I promise. I just wanted to write a little tid-bit about how I broke my window this semester.


By window, I mean how I see the world. I took a class when I was younger that "self evaluated" personal views, blahblahblah. Anyway I classified my window and set my goals. Now that I've moved across the country and live on my own, I've realized that I accidentally broke my window! Goals have changed, motivations completely scrambled, and the concept of "right and wrong" has taken on a whole new meaning.

So I will be positive from now on. I've lost who I used to be and have stumbled on a new person, with a new view on life. I want it to be a good one, and I'm afraid that at the moment I have been taking life way too serious. I've been frantic to put my old window back together, when I should really just let it go. Scary! Terrifying! But exciting : ) Here's to being who you are, who ever that is.

Sunday, November 6

Listening

At church, and in the scriptures, people always talk about hearing the voice of the Lord. I have to admit, I've never heard a voice. I was pretty troubled by this as a little kid, and throughout my younger years I'd just decided everyone was in on this metaphor for hearing God and I was just too dumb to catch on. But then I discovered the piano, and everything it could become. There is nothing more beautiful than music played purely to express one feeling, and after listening to certain pieces over and over, I'm starting to understand what people mean when they say they can hear the voice of the Lord. It's there, it's just written in triplets.

Sunday, October 30

Don't think. Just live.



Surprise, I've found the love of my life! Thank goodness I have the Lord in my life to help this cross-country relationship work. I love everything about him, and I can't wait to be with him again. Wish me luck with this crazy life-changer!

Tuesday, October 11

The (Lack Of A) Higher Standard

I apologize for not posting pictures, but this is more important.

I recently joined the military. I enjoy it, I have found a greater sense of purpose in what I do, and I would not give it up for anything. Not even for the love of my life. But I have noticed something that I think I was jaded to before.

People are vile, disrespectful, and incongruent. I expected my fellow midshipmen to be held to a higher standard. I expected my unit to be a place I could go for a constant support and the ability to be with people that have the same values as myself. I was so incredibly wrong, it's embarrassing. The people in my unit are good people, and they are my friends. But some of the things they do are horrendous. And I don't mean to be self righteous here! I'm talking about basic dignity. Some of them just don't have it. They are there for personal gain to the point of stabbing each other in the front to get it. How am I supposed to tell my commanding officer that he is the most horrible example of what an officer should be? I can't. I accidentally tried this morning, but luckly my xo came and saved me from getting myself kicked out. Appearantly standing up for something that you think is right is frowned upon in the military, and I am not okay with that.

I have a talk back problem, which I have been trying to curtail over the past few months. I have officially decided to give up trying, and talk back when something isn't right. I cannot handle how awful these people are just because there is no one above them to point out that they are jerks. I'll say what I want to say, that's why I joined as an officer. I will hold myself to a higher standard, like I thought everyone did in the military, and hopefully that's enough to keep me out of trouble.

Don't ever let anyone tell you what to believe, how to think, or what is right and wrong. You need to take responsibility to think for yourself, and you need to be brave enough to act on those thoughts.

Monday, October 3

Self Motivation

I love my life. I hope you are loving yours, too. I just want to take a second to share what I've learned thus far, and promise that next weekend, there will be pictures on this blog again!

What I've learned from college:
Work hard! Try harder! Never give up, and things will work out. There is a mentality that you have to accept when you go into a competitive college setting; You will be the best, but you will worship the curve. Once you can drill those two things into your mind at the exact same time, life is easy.

What I've learned from people:
They will be who they are, who they want to be, and who others see them as. Your job is to be yourself, no matter what. Never listen to someone who isn't willing to listen to you. But don't ever pass up an opportunity to listen to others. Everyone is essentially good, treat them that way.

What I have learned from the military:
Your opinion doesn't matter to anyone but you. There are so many ways to get ahead in the world, but the best way is to lift yourself by lifting others. Never, EVER, leave someone behind for personal gain when you have the ability to help them.

What I have learned from living alone:
Invest in a plant. Always have something to take care of. And, I have learned that I really do love my boyfriend. I miss him and cannot wait to be with him.

Oh! And find some self motivation. It's the only way to get through life. I love you! And I'll talk to you again soon.

Friday, August 26

I am finally back

Here, living on the other side of the country, I am finally posting this long over due apology.

I am so sorry I haven't posted anything, pictures are coming soon of U2, Peru, and a car I have recently fallen in love with. I have no excuse for taking so long, but let me tell you what I've been up to. First off, I am now a sailor in the United States Navy. I swore in just last week, and am now going through officer training. I am also newly moved into my college dorm at the Georgia Institute of Technology, studying Aerospace E. The classes are hard, and the homework is harder. I also am going through a slight culture shock. I have never really been turned away by people because of my religion, but just today I was told to "get lost" because I am Mormon. Trying my best to take it in stride, but it's a little rough to be taunted and mocked because I don't get drunk, smoke, or swear up a storm every time I open my mouth. Staying strong though!

Please be patient with me, the military takes up a lot of time, and classes take up the rest. But I hope you are all happy and loving life! I'll post again soon!

Sunday, May 29

Emergency

My xd card reader isn't working, and I might die. So picture posting is now on hold, U2 will have to wait.

Tuesday, May 24

U2

Going to U2 tonight! Check in for photos! I'm so excited!

Wednesday, May 18

Finished With International Baccalaureate

I took my last final! I can't believe it, I am done with the program that has been kicking me in the face for years now. And I have no idea what to do with myself. So I've decided to read Moby Dick, by Herman Melville. It helps to stop the withdraws of freaking out about homework to be done that doesn't exist. I have no more power over my diploma, and who knows what I'll get score wise. I just want to pass. I do know that I have learned a lot from the International Baccalaureate program, but I know that I have learned more from taking those classes, being told that I am a bad student with a poor I.Q., and learning how to work hard. Thank you, I.B.


You know what? It's nice to be in a situation where you are not very self confident, you feel dumb and aren't sure exactly how to go about succeeding. That way, when you do pass, prove the teacher wrong, that you are smart and that you do work hard, you suddenly find yourself able to do anything! I feel more confident now that I have been shot down than I ever did when people used to call me a smart kid.

I'm finding myself!

Saturday, May 14

To my 56 followers-

Thank you! I have had this blog for so long, and a few months ago I only had twelve followers, and they were all related to me in some way haha. But now, 56! I feel so awesome. I hope that all of you are having excellent times, and that nothing but good things come your way. Keep checking up here, things will pick up in excitement when I head off to Peru and Navy and college. Have a good day!

Saturday, April 16

My challenge to us

High school is ending, and not even forty eight hours after graduation, I will be flying to Lima, Peru. I will be working with a humanitarian group, and I cannot even tell you how excited I am! I promise to take a million pictures. After my trip, I will be joining the military, cementing my life into a very strict routine for the next couple decades. The only thing I can think to do is make a promise to myself, and challenge others to do the same. I promise to live everyday mindful of the blessings from the Lord, and to never miss an opportunity to give back by serving others. I heard a homeless woman tell a story of how there were four dogs on the street during the winter, and people had gathered around, calling family to find a home for these four lost dogs because they didn't want them going hungry, or freezing in the snow. They didn't even stop to help the homeless woman, who was freezing in the snow herself. What have we come to if we give so much care to a dog, yet when our sister needs some tender care, we blatantly ignore her. Do not walk past an opportunity to change a life ever again, friends.

Sunday, April 3

New distraction, My pencils thoughts


Things have just started spilling out of my pencil and falling all over the place. I wish I knew where these things were coming from, but the mostly just come to mind and before I can do much thinking, they're on paper.


Saturday, April 2

EnolamaI

EnolamaI, enolamaI, enolamaI.

Saturday, March 19

College!

I am still waiting on the Naval Academy to see if I am accepted, but I have just been notified that I have been accepted to the NROTC program at the Georgia Institute of Technology, in their Aeorspace college! It's actually happening! I am going to be a pilot : ) And one day... an ASTRONAUT! You think I'm kidding. I'm not. Wish me luck, I hope that all of your endeavors are going just as well!

Tuesday, March 15

Can't Wait to Go Back


These are the pictures from Little Wild Horse Canyon that I never put up, and so I have posted them in anticipation for our upcoming hiking trip. I cannot wait to get outside! I love these shots, they are lovely, I think. And not because of me, but because that whole canyon is just amazing!

Monday, March 14

My Latest Project





I secretly love to draw! Of course I am no good at it, but it is something I wish I did more of. So, with no time to take out my beloved camera, I have found my charcoal pencil! These are three self portraits that I created to depict how I happened to feel at the time. The trouble is, I have no idea how I felt, hence the Giraffe : )

Tuesday, February 15

Our Find on the Great Salt Lake

Tada! I have some obvious favorites from this shoot, but it was one of the best ones I've ever been on! Scary and exciting and slightly illegal all at the same time.


Monday, January 24

A few supermodels



Sometimes I think about ditching my beautiful friends so that I can feel pretty. But for now I'll keep them, because they are just too much fun to do photoshoots with, even when it snows. This was a special session for myself and the lovely lady in pink, as we will be chopping our hair off together to donate it to cancer kids. Wish us luck getting used to short hair : )

Friday, January 14

Swept Away by Life

I thought for sure I'd be able to post all of my new favorite photos as soon as I took them, but I have been so consumed by everything lately, it's hard to get a solid two hours of sleep, let alone edit a few pictures. Just an update on why I have been such a terrible photo-blogger, I am struggling with completing my application for the Naval Academy, and the decision comes out in February. Wish me luck : ) That has been my number one priority lately. But now that I have done my last bit of paperwork, I think I might get my life back! I've noticed a change in my style of photography, I'll be sure to post as soon as the opportunity presents itself and you can tell me what you think. Have a wonderful weekend!