Sunday, October 30

Don't think. Just live.



Surprise, I've found the love of my life! Thank goodness I have the Lord in my life to help this cross-country relationship work. I love everything about him, and I can't wait to be with him again. Wish me luck with this crazy life-changer!

Tuesday, October 11

The (Lack Of A) Higher Standard

I apologize for not posting pictures, but this is more important.

I recently joined the military. I enjoy it, I have found a greater sense of purpose in what I do, and I would not give it up for anything. Not even for the love of my life. But I have noticed something that I think I was jaded to before.

People are vile, disrespectful, and incongruent. I expected my fellow midshipmen to be held to a higher standard. I expected my unit to be a place I could go for a constant support and the ability to be with people that have the same values as myself. I was so incredibly wrong, it's embarrassing. The people in my unit are good people, and they are my friends. But some of the things they do are horrendous. And I don't mean to be self righteous here! I'm talking about basic dignity. Some of them just don't have it. They are there for personal gain to the point of stabbing each other in the front to get it. How am I supposed to tell my commanding officer that he is the most horrible example of what an officer should be? I can't. I accidentally tried this morning, but luckly my xo came and saved me from getting myself kicked out. Appearantly standing up for something that you think is right is frowned upon in the military, and I am not okay with that.

I have a talk back problem, which I have been trying to curtail over the past few months. I have officially decided to give up trying, and talk back when something isn't right. I cannot handle how awful these people are just because there is no one above them to point out that they are jerks. I'll say what I want to say, that's why I joined as an officer. I will hold myself to a higher standard, like I thought everyone did in the military, and hopefully that's enough to keep me out of trouble.

Don't ever let anyone tell you what to believe, how to think, or what is right and wrong. You need to take responsibility to think for yourself, and you need to be brave enough to act on those thoughts.

Monday, October 3

Self Motivation

I love my life. I hope you are loving yours, too. I just want to take a second to share what I've learned thus far, and promise that next weekend, there will be pictures on this blog again!

What I've learned from college:
Work hard! Try harder! Never give up, and things will work out. There is a mentality that you have to accept when you go into a competitive college setting; You will be the best, but you will worship the curve. Once you can drill those two things into your mind at the exact same time, life is easy.

What I've learned from people:
They will be who they are, who they want to be, and who others see them as. Your job is to be yourself, no matter what. Never listen to someone who isn't willing to listen to you. But don't ever pass up an opportunity to listen to others. Everyone is essentially good, treat them that way.

What I have learned from the military:
Your opinion doesn't matter to anyone but you. There are so many ways to get ahead in the world, but the best way is to lift yourself by lifting others. Never, EVER, leave someone behind for personal gain when you have the ability to help them.

What I have learned from living alone:
Invest in a plant. Always have something to take care of. And, I have learned that I really do love my boyfriend. I miss him and cannot wait to be with him.

Oh! And find some self motivation. It's the only way to get through life. I love you! And I'll talk to you again soon.